Newsletter Feb 12th

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I felt the urge to write. Maybe an urgency to let you know I’m alive, to share where I am this month of February. After the shedding, what emerges from the cocoon?

I returned on Monday from a trip to Colorado. I was asked why I would go to the United States right now — why there?

There’s nothing better to understand a country, a culture, than to walk its land, to meet its inhabitants — the humans and the rest — to touch the rocks and trees, to watch the clouds. And in these troubled times, it feels even more aligned for me to remain open to different perspectives, to go and see, to feel — not to confine the “other” within a limited frame defined by the poor quality of its political landscape.

Colorado did not lie about its name: a state of colors and grand landscapes, a special energy, a vibration. From a retreat center in Crestone, on the side of a mountain, I watched the sunset each evening over the vast desert plain. A magnificent spectacle we followed almost religiously, either in the middle of or at the close of our rituals.

This journey was another opportunity to assist at an ISTA retreat — the organization/school through which I’ve done much of my tantric and shamanic training since 2019. Each time, it’s a rediscovery — a journey in itself to be part of this work. Each time, I re-emerge in love.

These two weeks — from my arrival, a road trip with a friend, the ISTA retreat, and three transition days with the assistant team — offered me the opportunity to revisit themes within myself, particularly around my desire and the expression of my erotic energy.

For me, erotic energy (Eros) is life force energy — a current that moves between me, you, others, the world. It is not attached, not performative, not directive by nature — it exists as a vibration that makes me feel alive. It is connected to emotion, pleasure, motivation. I can choose to share it, to express it through art, dance, song, through making love with another human being, or even with nature.

I’ve spent a large part of my life seeking intensity — in relationships, in experiences. Recently, I’ve become able to slow down and explore more subtly. In that slowness, I’ve touched layers I couldn’t previously feel because I would immediately go “to the other side.”

I realized, among other things, how much shame and fear I still carried around expressing my desire — whether sexual or not. It’s a deeply vulnerable space. By digging deeper, I touched and released remaining layers of trauma from sexual abuse and slut-shaming I experienced as a teenager and young adult, allowing more trust and safety in expressing who I am.

This time away reaffirmed that I am on the right professional path: letting go of more mental and operational tasks, and dedicating myself to vibrating and sharing what I am — a transmission of love and Eros.

And that is my gift to the world — my capacity to open, to love, to touch, to be present, to offer unconditional love and my full attention — and to allow Eros to circulate without attachment, goal, or performance.

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This spring, I invite you to co-create with me: spaces outside of time, moments just for you, in deep connection, to nourish and replenish what within you is ready to be seen and met.

These experiences are offered in a minimum format of two sessions, with the possibility of a full-day immersion or mentorship over several weeks.

A living TRansmission of Love and Eros

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