Why are you here?

Why are you here?

They asked.

What called you here, to Southern Colorado, for a Living Level 1 ISTA training?

The land.

The people.

The work.

I want to be in service of the field.

My gift – a transmission, a transmutation, an embodied experience.

My power – to feel, to crack open, and to stay present with everything.

Because I can.

I am not avoiding pain anymore.

I am here to move.

To breathe.

To feel.

To be a conduit for Life,

letting Her pass through me.

A bridge between worlds and realities –

offering a reflection of Power

as they see themselves in me.

Why are you here?

They asked again –

I am in service, in devotion.

A deep reverence for this work,

for the lineage of shamans and magicians

we are (re)awakening.

Because it is the most important thing

I can do right now.

And also –

because it’s fun.

Why not?

I choose fun.

I choose to find pleasure in the densest and darkest emotions.

To keep breathing in the deepest layers of human drama – not mine anymore, but in the original meaning of sacred theater:

a collective storytelling woven into what postmodern civilization has become,

repeating the same myths and stories over and over again.

Life and death cycles held as a contradiction –

game over,

let’s play again.

My journey into the dark to reach the Soul and integrate paradoxes

can help trace a path for seekers.

And find Beauty –

everywhere.

Why are you here?

Once again.

I am here to experience

Life, Death, Beauty –

and everything in between

and beyond.